I...

When you were here I fell asleep so quickly..
With the way you curled up behind me,
Hugging me closer,
And buried your face in my shoulder,
I was safe.
I fell asleep with my hand on your chest,
How I loved to feel your breathing,
Our legs swirled together
And your fingers laced in my hair.
I was loved.
And when we were out,
In the middle of a crowd,
Your eyes were only for me,
As if I were a royal queen.
I was special.
Now you're gone... And I can't sleep.
My heart feels all that it has lost
So fully... I can bear it only so long.
My hands are empty, and your eyes are no longer on me.
I am lonely.

We're All in Need of Saving Sometimes

I want to save you:
Pull you away from everything that hurts.
Shelter you from poisoning lips
And fiery words.
From all the thoughts that drag you under
I want to be the one you run to.
But, how can I be your savior
When I need saving too?

Shhh....

It's building up...
This secret I must keep.
You threw it on
To my already large heap.
I know I swore
I wouldn't tell a soul
But my heart is heavy;
This burden creating a hole.
With each new day,
I know you're in more pain,
As her fists come down
And insults shower like rain.
I'm glad you trusted,
And told me what's happening,
I'd be lying if I wasn't scared,
Every night you go to bed crying.

Oblivion

I once wrote a poem entitled 'These Nights.'
In which I said "these nights are the nights that will fade into
                                 oblivion."
But, my dear, since then I have counted each night as its own wonder.
A magnificent gift bestowed to me that carries it's own marvelous
                                mysteries.
Each night a new fantastic lesson could be learned or some new marvel beheld.
My dear, this outlook is because of you; on that night I dared to say would fade
                               to oblivion,
                 That was the night I met you.

Demons

My demons are everywhere tonight:
Crawling in my mind, devouring my might.
My soul blackened beyond repair,
My willpower gone; I hold onto this despair.

Emotional Scars Hurt the Worst

Throughout all the years I've known you
I've considered you my best friend.
You were the person in this world I could trust
And I knew you'd stick with me
Through thick and thin.
I'd go to you with troubles and hurts
And I'd leave feeling the pain had finally come to an end.
I guess love really is blind,
Since every time I came to you
A new scar was added upon me.
And I only just realized
That these cuts you gave
Run so deep inside me.

10 Is a Magic Number

10 seconds

Since I dropped  you off. 

And it took everything in me 

Not to chase after you and beg you to stay.

10 minutes

I can't stop thinking about what you're doing.

Walking through security... boarding a plane...

Meeting cute girls. Are you missing me already?

10 hours

All our secret moments are on my mind:

The kisses we shared, hearts pumping and hands roaming.

The stolen glances and touches, while our bodies ached for more.

10 days

You were here and every second I spent with you. 

And now I have to go months 

Before I can see your handsome face again. 

It already feels like 10 lifetimes.

No Use Denying it Anymore

For all my life I've been told that I must walk a certain path.
I must act a specific way,
Be a good (perfect) person.
Until I was 18, I was not supposed to think about boys.
(I had my first kiss when I was 16)
I was not supposed to have sex until I was married.
(I lost my virginity at 17)
But, I think
What they want most of all
Is for me to love boys.
And, I do.
I never questioned that.
Until she walked into my life.
She's amazing,
One of the best friends I've ever had.
I let her kiss me.
I let her touch me.
Sorry mom and dad.
I liked it.