Alone

Is it my fault?
Am I the one to blame?
When I’m alone
And no one seems to care?

The only company I have
Are the thoughts 
That swirl inside my mind.
I just need one!

One person to never leave.
One friend
Who doesn’t lie to me
And doesn’t judge.

I just need one…
Please! So I’m not so alone…

The Most Difficult Thing

Being in love is the most difficult thing..
I want to run and jump and laugh!
But I want to cry and sob and be alone, too.
I want to smile and show that you've changed me!
But I want you to see that I'm dying as well.
I want to lay by your side forever,
And I want to push you away so I can be okay.
I want you to see just what you're doing
Because you're piecing me together
And watching me tear myself apart.
Being in love is the most difficult thing
When you don't believe love is worth the pain.

Maybe It's Time...

Do you think that it's possible
For a single person
To have such a large role in your life
But you have none in theirs?

You note the important milestones
And they pass him by
Without a second glance or care.
They mean so much and yet so little.

Late nights crying, he was there for you
And you thought so much
But to him you were just the broken girl;
The girl who had no one else to fix her.

For those who are crippled by this pain,
Of meaning so little
To someone who means so much to you,
Maybe it's time to give up on him.

Never forget, but don't hold on forever.

The Way I See You

So much anger and pent up frustration.
Just seeing your face sends me deeper into isolation.
Once the best of friends
But I suppose everything eventually ends.
She stole everything from me
And now you can't even see,
I'm standing right in front of you!
Why can't you see me the way that I see you?

What Makes a Person Beautiful?

What makes a person beautiful? 
I have to ask 
Is it the way they smile,
Or the way they laugh? 

What makes a person beautiful? 
Is it the color of their eyes? 
Is it because their kind? 
What if they are wonderful 
In everything they do? 

What makes a person beautiful? 
Does it have anything to do with looks at all? 
Is it the way they move their hips?
Cause superficial things mean nothing at all. 

What makes a person beautiful? 
Is it their compassion? 
Or their many possesions? 
Can someone please tell me? 
Because all I see around me 
Is people starving themselves 
To look like those celebrities.

What makes a person beautiful??
Does anybody really know??

Broken

A smile that lights up a room,
A laugh that rids of all gloom,
A joy that overwhelms you
And a person that is always true.

But these things are on the outside.
That same person can be falling apart inside.
A heart that's shattered because of you,
A person broken completely in two.

It Wasn't Over

I know I said I wouldn't,
I swore I was done.
That river that was flowing,
Would never take me again;
Even if you were with me.

I had done so well, for so long.
My walls were up, hope gone.
But so quickly, with a few words,
You broke me down. And the
Waves started to roll again.

Your lips like smooth velvet,
Beckoned me. And in a moment
I was gathered in your arms
And rushing towards the water.
The swirling mass a hint of things to come.

I hold your hand as you lean in;
The kiss sending me heavenbound.
My hope returning and my heart
Fixing, we jump: together. No
Longer are we alone on the shore.

But how quickly you scramble,
Afraid of what could happen.
You swim towards the shore;
After she left you alone you had forgotten
The pain the water could hold.

Hold onto my hand! I scream to you.
I won't let you down. But you're gone.
You left me in the same place as before.
How long till I learn? How long will I wait
For you before giving up altogether?

Unfortunately, I think I'll wait forever.

Always

You keep asking if I'm hurt, but I'm not.
I'm not broken, I'm not falling apart anymore.
I'm not hurt.

I'm just mad.
I'm mad at myself for believing your lies.
I'm mad at you, for lying to me all over again.

I'm mad because your smile is beautiful.
I'm mad because I apologize when you should.
I'm mad at myself.

I hate myself.
I hate that I can't stay angry with you.
I hate that no matter what, I'll always love you.